In fewer than 48 hours, we will be wrapped around each other, fast asleep.
Right now, I miss her so much that I cannot sleep, that it physically hurts to do anything.

I have never been this person.

I think of her and it puts tears in my eyes. And down my face. We have been apart for 10 days.

I'm not sure whether this is my first codependency or whether it is me really being with the right person for the first time. But I have never felt this...this before. I mean, fuck -- I was in a long-distance relationship for 16 months. I should be able to handle it.

Not with her.

Christmas is a big fucking disaster.

My parents have been very...cold the whole time I've been home. I'm trying to convince myself that it has nothing to do with the fact that this is the first time they've seen me since I came out.

It is kind of lonesome. Being here at "home."

When the only person who really feels like home is 1800 miles away from me.